With Thanksgiving just around the corner, I have a lot of family drama circling around in my head. I’m sure most of you do as well, because of course it’s that time of year; When we have to force our happy faces on to deal with the family members we don’t hang out with regularly.
My mom had to remind me how bad of a trigger a certain family member of mine can be for my anxiety and depression. I hate that I have allowed someone else to have such control over me, but they literally trained me to be afraid of them. The problem for them, now, is that the power they once held over me isn’t in their hands anymore.
So how, oh how, am I going to deal with this person, now that their hold over me is no longer relevant? My plan is simple, really; Avoidance. I’m not even kidding, I plan to just avoid them until I can’t. When I finally can’t avoid anymore, I’m going to try to explain from my perspective why I cannot continue to tolerate their shenanigans.
Now, I have no idea if my bravado will hold true throughout my dual visits up north this month. However, with my anxiety meds, my mother, and my therapist on my side, I think I’m finally ready to take a stand for myself.
Some of you may remember that my wedding ring was stolen from me, in my grandmother’s home, during Christmas last year. Let’s just say that I’m still salty about it. It induces both rage and anxiety every time I think about how it and subsequent events unfolded.
The worst part is that it wasn’t even the first incident, but it was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Oh, and they continue to act as if NOTHING HAPPENED. (Like I said, rage-inducing.)
I thoroughly believe that karma will continue to work its magic in this world, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t stand up for myself in tandem with it!